So I told my best friend that I was feeling really down and depressed (not really just really really down) and that I take things out on myself physically when I feel down or angry or pissed and upset and it took ALOT to tell her and she just said well it could be hormones……. Like really?? No its fucking not I had these feelings on and off since I was like what 7? I almost killed myself when I was 8/9 and this is what i get?!?
And I moved away from where i lived so now all we can do is text and she doesn’t even see if im okay I always have to make the effort. And when we do talk she doesn’t ask if I’m okay or how my day was and when she’s really upset I try my best to make her smile even a little and give her advice. These girls who she friends with are being absolute bitches to her and I tell her they’re just gonna keep doing that to you best to keep away. What does she do? Go back to them and I have to pick up the pieces. And she lies about having to go when we’re texting then 10 mins later puts up anyone statuses…. -_-
I’m just sick and exhausted of protecting and helping people who won’t even try and save me…..
I’m done. I shouldn’t even feel this way or think these things I’m only 13………
*goes to a party and awkwardly follows friend around the entire time*
*goes to a family reunion and awkwardly follows mom around the entire time*
*goes to hell and awkwardly follows satan the entire time*
*goes to earth and awkwardly follows sam the entire time*
im still counting on one last wave of puberty to come really late and make me hot